Imposter

Sometimes I feel like I don’t belong in medical school. I hear my classmates discussing complex topics and asking questions about things I’ve never heard before in my life. Am I really supposed to be here? Am I smart enough for this? I spend every night at home, in a coffee shop, or a library reading and re-reading the lectures I heard just hours ago. I sometimes wonder if the smart people in my class even have to study. I even have to watch the recordings more than once before I remotely understand what is going on. I’m not failing yet… but why am I the only one that feels out of place? I know my classmates have done so much more before coming to med school. I wish I had the same confidence. PLEASE, someone tell me that I am not alone or wake me up from this dream. Am I a imposter?

-Anon, 2022